You want to do what!?
After our second failed stint on Clomid, I returned to the doctor to hopefully get some answers.
To my horror, those answers apparently came in the form of Laproscopic surgery to take a closer look inside to hopefully find the cause of the problems and to do a bit of a clean out at the same time.
At this time I put the breaks completely. I was still not convinced my ferility problems were all that serious. After all, sometimes it just takes people a little bit longer than others, right? (hah!) I was also terrified at the prospect of having surgery and was not convinced it was necessary.
I told the doctor thanks but no thanks and decided to head down the natural therapies route for a while.
Now I’m going to skip pretty quickly over the next six months as, now, in the scheme of things for me, it seems a bit like time wasted. Not that I am saying natural therapies are a waste of time for everyone. I’m sure if my problems didn’t turn out to be so serious that this could have been quite a success and I am sure it is for many other couples. And I am still quite willing to use them, but will do so alongside conventional medicine.
All that really needs to be said is that after six months of charting temperatures, taking supplements and drinking special herbal concoctions that tasted pretty much like death in a bottle, I was no closer to my much longed for pregnancy.
Oh – the ‘natural ferility specialist’ did suspect I had an early miscarraige in this time. There’s a good chance I did, however I don’t really acknowledge it as such, as I never actually saw a positive test result, nor did I experience any of the emotion attached to losing a pregnancy. I almost don’t feel that it’s fair to say that I had a miscarraige, after reading the stories that so many women have. I can’t even begin to fathom that pain, and I guess that’s one of the few positives I can take from my journey – that I have never had to go through this. Anyway, I digress…
I decided to head back to the doctor, hat in hand, and ask to have the Laproscopy. Then, surely, I would have my answers and my baby.